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^ I felt really evil up there .. oh well :]

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On the internet anyone can act brave.
It takes balls to say shit to someones face in person.

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"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure.
I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle.
But if you can't handle me at my worst,
then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."


NICOOLEPALAZZOTTO;
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a.armogan,r.burdeos,e.cantos,v.diep,c.gregorio,
s.ramlall,v.vivian♥
they make life so much better :]

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R.David♥
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V.Diep♥
A.Gregorio♥
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C.Nanlal♥
S.Ramlall♥
V.Vivian♥

This was needed.
Happy Birthday Andrew Steven Jorge Palazzotto
Cut her some slack.
You both are pulling on the rope and i'm caught in...
Random thought..
6 More Days and My Summer Begins.
My summer is just beginning.
Its not your fault,
Yesterday, how I loved you so .
Vivianndiep,

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July10'
01-Canadas Day, :)
04-Land with Jayde :)
05-Summer school begins -.-
05-Chillage with Sasha<3
07-Pizza with Jess :)
09-Happy Birthday Marko :)
09-Chillage with Amelia :)
10-OH HAPPY DAY :)
10-Chillage with Tara :)<3
11-Chillage with Erick & Kasandra :)
13-Chillage with Mina :) <3
15-Jess' science exam! Goodluck!<3
15-Chillage with Erick :)
16-Mid-term report card..
16-Sleepover with Sasha&Lisa <3 + Starbucks with Jess! :)
17-Sleepover with Sasha&Lisa <3
19-Nats Birthday Party :) <3
24-Land with Viv & Chris :):) & maybe Lyssa ? <3
29-Math Exam o__O HELLS YEAH PASSED THIS SHIT XD
30-Summer School Ends :):)
31-Carabana with Tara,Tiff,Jasmine and Mariam :):)
31-Vivians Birthday Dinner with Chris, Lyssa, Rach and Esther <3

August10'
02-Happy Birthday Viviannnnn! Love you bestfraaand ♥
02-Chillage with Viviannn + Chriss :):)
03-Sleepover with Lyssabear :3
04-Sleepover with Lyssabear :3
06-Happy Birthdaaay Jess! Loveee youuu ♥
06-Sleepover with Sushikins ♥
07-Sleepover with Sushikins ♥
07-Greeeeeek Festival with Sushikins ♥
07-Happy Birthdaaay Drew! Love you brooo ♥
09-Sqauree One with Taraaa :3
10-Drews Birthday Dinner with Mom, Jess and Titia ♥
11-Mcdonaldsss with Lyss, Johnny G and Nikko :)
12-Sasha Leaves ):
12-Chillage with Tara :)
13-Opening of Hottopic with Tara :):):)
15-Sasha comes back :):):)
17-Beach with the gang :)
17-Chillage with Sasha :)
18-Starbucks with Jess & Monica :):)
21-Chillage with Erick :):)
27-Happy Birthdaaay Daddy! Love youuu ♥

December 2009 | January 2010 | February 2010 | March 2010 | April 2010 | May 2010 | June 2010 | July 2010 | August 2010 |

"Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go".

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Thanks for putting me through misery.
Thanks for choosing him over me.
Thanks for not thinking of my feelings.
Thanks for everything your going to
put me through.
Thanks for being the friend I never wanted.
Thanks for making me believe that I had a chance.
Thanks for ruining everything for me.

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That question haunts me every time I think about it. I feel like giving up all the time. On everything. There are those times when I can't handle anything. When I just wanna walk away from my dreadful life. But then I think there are people who are going through much worse then I am. So I have to be able to keep myself together. But sometimes I feel like one day I'm just gonna crack. Where everything is just gonna tear me in half. I most definitely wouldn't be able to handle that. I've always just wanted for everything to be okay. I thought high school would do that for me. You know getting away from all of your elementary problems. But i've come to realize you can't always run away from your problems because they will always end up sneaking up on you. You can only run away for so long. I've ran for so long from all my problems. I have to be able to face everything. And now I am with a little help from everyone I might be okay. Guys, well just him. Are the least of my worries right now. Yeah I like him, I've said it all before. But he doesn't like me back. There done. I need to move on and deal with it. If he likes me again, then thats good for him. Maybe I might go back but thats the future I don't know what the future holds for me and I'd rather keep it that way. My friends always there for them I love them alot. I'm happy I can help with there problems and that they can help with mine. It's always good to have support from people you mean alot to you. Without them, I would've cracked by now. But they've been helping me put all the pieces back together. I need all the help with that.
Just needed to vent my feelings. Needed somewhere to put it.
- nicooooleee.

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You got a bestfriend or bestfriends ? Well if you do. Just remember they're amazing (:
Well at least my friends are LOOOOL. No offence to any of you.
My bestfriends are my lyfeeeeeeee, :)
Fuck with them, you fuck with me .
<3
kthx.

-nicoooolee.

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Well today, you gave me back my scarf. It smelled like you. It reminded me of happy memories. I don't regret anything. Cause you were never a regret. You were my first love. I'll always remember you. You will always be my bestfriend. Just remember that. Even if I want us to be more then friends. I would rather be your friend instead of nothing at all. I love you. With all my heart. You were and somewhat still are my everything. Without you, I'm nothing. Thank you for showing up into my life. You are amazing.
And btw, You smell delicious :3 <3

- nicooolee.

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Oh, look at what day it is. My favorite day of the year .. not. I hate valentines day. I've said this so many times. But too me valentines day is just a reminder of what you don't have. Yeah I know that i'm only a kid and I have a lot of time to find someone special. But atm I can't. Why you may ask ? Oh well my heart is set on someone else right now. Yes, I know he doesn't feel the same way. But I still have feelings for him. They will never get returned I know that. I can't help the way I feel so don't judge me kthx.
That is all.
-nicoooolee.

Ps. To those who have someone I hope you and your significant other have a strong relationship and goodluck for the future :)

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Right now I just can't believe in love. I ask myself always is love real ? does it exist ? Well in my world it doesn't. Love used to exist. Until you shattered it and made it un-real. I hate this kind of curse you have struck upon me. Why did I ever think I had a chance ? Yeah you still have the box and yeah you still have my gift from christmas. But sometimes it doesn't mean anything. At the time I thought things couldn't get better but then they didn't. I stay heartbroken to this day until someone is able to capture my heart like you did. I read everything today from the texts to the stuff from my box. I cried for a good hour. I remember when I used to cry myself to sleep everynight because i missed you so much even though you didn't go away. But now you have. And now I shall start the same process I had a couple of months ago. Crying, crying, crying and crying every night. Sometimes I think i'm an idiot because I know that crying isn't going to solve anything. But I feel as if crying is my only solution. But I know in my heart it's not. My mind takes over sometimes and it tells me things I shouldn't believe. Just the other day I had a dream about you. I dreamt of the times in September that me and you would take the bus together. But it wasn't the times on the bus I remembered. It was the time waiting for the bus that we shared. I remember sitting under what we use to call "our tree". When I go out to lunch sometimes I walk by that tree and think about everything. So as I was saying. I remember my head laying in your lap as you sat down cross legged and we would hold hands as you would lean down and kiss my cheek mulitiple times. As I did the same. I remember once me and you just lying down looking at eachother and two girls on the otherside of the street yelled "WOOHOO !". They thought we were kissing but we were just staring at eachother and talking. I remember me and you kissing for the first time. Yeah sure it was on a moving bus but thats something i'll never forget. It left me with butterflies in my stomach. I remember the second time me and you kissed. It was raining and you decided to go under a tree because there was this wood thing and you wanted to jump on it, I thought that was so cute. I had decided to join you then we looked at eachother and kissed and I had asked you if you made up your mind yet if you had liked me or not. And you had said yeah, I do. That made me the happiest girl ever. October 9th, 2009 is a day I will never forget. But these are just memories. I hope maybe one day you will see all the pain you put me through, all the heartache. If you were to ever read this. You would think i'm an obsessed fool. But truly i'm just a girl who has been heartbroken for months and really really likes you. But you will never know that unless you read my blogs. You would most def know its about you if you read this one and the one before. I can guarentee you will never feel the same for me again. I just know you wont. But sometimes it never hurts to wait .. but then again i've been waiting since october and it's february now. Thats been 4months. Wow I've waited 4 months for you. Maybe if I wait a little longer something good may happen in the process...

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You were my bestfriend.
We would talk for hours on the phone.
We would hang out all the time.
I thought we would last as friends.
Yeah we both liked eachother at one point.
Yeah you realized that I was only like
a bestfriend/sister to you.
Yeah I was heartbroken and still am.
But I learned to accept it.
Because I knew I wouldn't be losing you.
During christmas break you texted me
asking me to chill I was happy.
Because we hadn't hung out in ages.
We stayed up till 5 am texting eachother.
Talking about everything, how much we missed eachother.
You made a promise I thought you would keep.
You said that you would start hanging out with me more
often at school again.
At first I believed you because you were acctually doing it.
Then a week later you stopped.
When I needed you, you weren't there.
But I told you no matter what I was always here.
Because I still care about you.
Your still in my thoughts, on my mind constantly, and in my heart.
Maybe i'm in your heart. But it really doesn't feel like it.
I've cried for months about you.
Because I didn't want to lose you.
I cry as i'm writing this.
Because I miss you so much too the point where I feel like
i'm depressed without you in my life.
People have told me he is an idiot.
But he isn't too me.
Too me he is still my bestfriend for always.
Even if we don't talk anymore
I still consider him my bestfriend.
Because he was always there,
When I needed him.
I wish I could tell him,
that I still like him.
But he likes someone new, so it would make things more
awkward then they already are.
I don't want to lose you all together.
I love you so much.
But I don't think you even consider me a friend
anymore .
Maybe you do, but thats not how it feels ..

I miss everything including you ):