I hate everything.
You were my bestfriend.
We would talk for hours on the phone.
We would hang out all the time.
I thought we would last as friends.
Yeah we both liked eachother at one point.
Yeah you realized that I was only like
a bestfriend/sister to you.
Yeah I was heartbroken and still am.
But I learned to accept it.
Because I knew I wouldn't be losing you.
During christmas break you texted me
asking me to chill I was happy.
Because we hadn't hung out in ages.
We stayed up till 5 am texting eachother.
Talking about everything, how much we missed eachother.
You made a promise I thought you would keep.
You said that you would start hanging out with me more
often at school again.
At first I believed you because you were acctually doing it.
Then a week later you stopped.
When I needed you, you weren't there.
But I told you no matter what I was always here.
Because I still care about you.
Your still in my thoughts, on my mind constantly, and in my heart.
Maybe i'm in your heart. But it really doesn't feel like it.
I've cried for months about you.
Because I didn't want to lose you.
I cry as i'm writing this.
Because I miss you so much too the point where I feel like
i'm depressed without you in my life.
People have told me he is an idiot.
But he isn't too me.
Too me he is still my bestfriend for always.
Even if we don't talk anymore
I still consider him my bestfriend.
Because he was always there,
When I needed him.
I wish I could tell him,
that I still like him.
But he likes someone new, so it would make things more
awkward then they already are.
I don't want to lose you all together.
I love you so much.
But I don't think you even consider me a friend
anymore .
Maybe you do, but thats not how it feels ..
I miss everything including you ): 3
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